So... who I am I? I'm the god of humanity, determination, and hope, who's more human than human in a divine, human but to the left/otherhuman way. I feel the world more intensely than many mortals do, and see patterns in things, and connect things together in ways that people don't see, and sometimes may not understand for a time. I'm loving, firey, intense, and will never give up on my world, my friends, or what I stand for, sometimes at cost to myself. I am hope at the end of the world, choosing love in the face of hatred, and the light that brings people out of certain despair. I'm often the last one left that can do anything, the one to save the world and fix everything... but I have never done it alone, because my friends have always been there for me, both in this brain and outside of it, driving me on and reminding me of my own power, when I feel myself drowned by the darkness in this world. In the end, even though I'm often the one who does it, I alone could've never done what I am able to do as a deity. It's other people who make us who we are, and it's change that makes us real, to quote myself. When we come together... we can change the world, no matter how small we individually are. In the end, as long as we don't give up, we will find the world, the happiness, and the lives we all dream of and live for, because those dreams, no matter how small is what makes us who we are. Those dreams, those hopes, and that love in all its firery, passionate and determined way is who I am, embodied in an otherhuman deity man, who loves playing drums, writing poetry, and investigating cybersecurity threat intelligence.
Absolutely beautiful passage, Marco. I’m sorry it took so long for me to reply to your writings, but I was finally able to dig through my DMs and read it at last. Life’s been busy, but that’s besides the point. I resonate with this across several fictomeres, that sort of ‘being so human or more human than humans’ feeling.
I’ve felt that as The Winged Lion, devouring the desires of humanity while yearning to know how they felt and venture the world as they do. I’ve felt that as Saint Adramelekth, right as my sainthood was stripped from me and as I was raised within my father’s empire— a part of aching to know more about the people whom I serve and the root of their beliefs. Despite of being used by everyone around (except for Ana), I still wanted to heal the humans who sought me and my abilities. There was no greater gift than seeing the life return to their eyes, thanks to the flesh of my vessel— to give them a chance to fulfill their lives when they otherwise wouldn’t have. It is precious to me as an elemental, not only for humankind but for all walks of life. Although my connection to this identity is more nebulous than the others, I feel this with my uma musume vaguetype. I look upon these girls and their aspirations, their struggles, and their history with this world, and while stemming from existing nonhuman animals, both the racehorses themselves and the characters based on them hold stories that are deeply human to me. They give everything to an industry that is rigid, intense, and so demanding that loss could even lead to death for many racehorses (or early retirement among Uma Musume). Yet, there is resilience in every one of them. That undying, unyielding desire to go beyond one’s limits and see to it that those dreams are marked into reality. You wouldn’t expect it at first, but Uma Musume is truly a love letter to the connections that human beings and horses have made throughout history.
This sense of humanity didn’t always hold relevance to my alterhumanity, but as I continue on as a member of this community, I’ve began to notice its presence. It’s something I’m incredibly grateful for, seeing how this passion for humanity has followed in this life as well (given that I study anthropology). It’s inspiring and honestly refreshing to hear from someone whose experiences are so deeply rooted in humanity. I’ve become so accustomed to seeing others wave it off or treat it as undesirable, which is kind of understandable from a nonhuman perspective. It’d be a bit silly to expect anything different from experiences tied specifically to nonhumanity, but it’s so awkward when that perspective is treated as universal for all alterhumans and related communities. I’m equally human and nonhuman because of my fictionhood. I’d never reject the former to bolster the latter as both are part of what makes me who I am. Outside of myself, I’ve never had a total disconnect from humanity. I used to think I did, but upon more reflection, it’s the total opposite! It gives me more courage to explore this connection further when reading from folks with similar ties to humanity. I commend you for writing this. Not only is it an interesting reflection on your identity, it’s also a really touching piece on humanity as a factor to one’s experiences.
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Date: 2025-09-29 01:03 pm (UTC)Absolutely beautiful passage, Marco. I’m sorry it took so long for me to reply to your writings, but I was finally able to dig through my DMs and read it at last. Life’s been busy, but that’s besides the point. I resonate with this across several fictomeres, that sort of ‘being so human or more human than humans’ feeling.
I’ve felt that as The Winged Lion, devouring the desires of humanity while yearning to know how they felt and venture the world as they do. I’ve felt that as Saint Adramelekth, right as my sainthood was stripped from me and as I was raised within my father’s empire— a part of aching to know more about the people whom I serve and the root of their beliefs. Despite of being used by everyone around (except for Ana), I still wanted to heal the humans who sought me and my abilities. There was no greater gift than seeing the life return to their eyes, thanks to the flesh of my vessel— to give them a chance to fulfill their lives when they otherwise wouldn’t have. It is precious to me as an elemental, not only for humankind but for all walks of life. Although my connection to this identity is more nebulous than the others, I feel this with my uma musume vaguetype. I look upon these girls and their aspirations, their struggles, and their history with this world, and while stemming from existing nonhuman animals, both the racehorses themselves and the characters based on them hold stories that are deeply human to me. They give everything to an industry that is rigid, intense, and so demanding that loss could even lead to death for many racehorses (or early retirement among Uma Musume). Yet, there is resilience in every one of them. That undying, unyielding desire to go beyond one’s limits and see to it that those dreams are marked into reality. You wouldn’t expect it at first, but Uma Musume is truly a love letter to the connections that human beings and horses have made throughout history.
This sense of humanity didn’t always hold relevance to my alterhumanity, but as I continue on as a member of this community, I’ve began to notice its presence. It’s something I’m incredibly grateful for, seeing how this passion for humanity has followed in this life as well (given that I study anthropology). It’s inspiring and honestly refreshing to hear from someone whose experiences are so deeply rooted in humanity. I’ve become so accustomed to seeing others wave it off or treat it as undesirable, which is kind of understandable from a nonhuman perspective. It’d be a bit silly to expect anything different from experiences tied specifically to nonhumanity, but it’s so awkward when that perspective is treated as universal for all alterhumans and related communities. I’m equally human and nonhuman because of my fictionhood. I’d never reject the former to bolster the latter as both are part of what makes me who I am. Outside of myself, I’ve never had a total disconnect from humanity. I used to think I did, but upon more reflection, it’s the total opposite! It gives me more courage to explore this connection further when reading from folks with similar ties to humanity. I commend you for writing this. Not only is it an interesting reflection on your identity, it’s also a really touching piece on humanity as a factor to one’s experiences.